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These are some silly photos of everyone.

Girls Night out!

We finally got the girls in the area together.. Well at least most of them. Which was like the hardest thing to do... But it happened, and it was a whole lot of fun. Saddly we didn't do it sooner. Now a majority of females will be leaving.. Such is life though... Anyway.. It was loads of fun. Kaden and Lilianna were with us, but they slept peacefully.Bless them!! So I'll add some pics of our event. Enjoy ppl!

Braids

So I wanted to do something differnet with myself, and got my hair braided which took about 3/4 hours for my friend to do it.. Alot of ppl disliked it.. Myself included... Just not like it was when I was younger.. Guess it might have to do with the age factor. But anyway! It was different ,had it in for like a week and then just took them out.

Alien

My Baby is Two months now.. Yet still his belly button is not completly healed.. I know something is wrong with it.. I just don't know what it is.. His doctor doesn't seemed to be to alarmed by it.. But it's got me a bit worried.. I've tried everything, alcohol,witch hasel,golden seal, air and sunshine.. The Doc even put acid on it as well. Which took some off.. But now it's back to "normal" I just hope it's not going to stay that way.. And I hope it won't have to be some big opperation either. Anyway! Here's my sons little "alien". :D

My Monday

Well I guess having another little one in my life doesn't leave me much room to goof off on here much.. So this explains my infrequency.

Anyway! Monday I took a day off.. went Sunday night to KidzVidz home. Love those guys there. They are all so loving and sweet.. They have a slew of guys there. Of all ages.. And they 're just the sweetest, even the younger once. Always saying how pretty I looked, or how sweet I was etc. It's not every day you get that, so it's a rare treat. And a nice one at that! Just wish we weren't so far off...

I had wanted to do some major jamming Sunday night, but for one Aaron chickened out again at doing it.,(doom on you, you bad bugger! )And two it was late by the time I got dropped off. We would have still done it though if he had been there. When I walked in everyone was like.. "Where's Aaron?", "Aaron didn't stay" ," Why didn't he come to jam with us".. All I could tell them was that I tried.. It would have been nice though.. I've been inching to do some jamming for a while. Some intence jamming...PTL! Maybe some other time. :(

Things are so quiet in the home now.. I mean really quiet.. Everybody is basically all gone, just us last few standing.. And will see how much longer that will go for. The home is bound to close but ya! Just miss everyone alot! You know how it is.. Once you've passed that certian point. All you care about is moving forward, and getting going, cause it's so hard living in limbo. Well I just feel that creeping in. So will see how things go from here.

Kidz Bits

What do you do, when your 5 your old son comes up to you and says..." mom I want to grow my hair out long like my Uncles." You say... "sweety, why don't we wait on that till your as old as he is.". And he says.... "because I'm already a big boy, I have a little brother. That makes me big, so can I grow my hair out?" Ahhh.. Ahhh.... "ok Honey, will see how it looks, but if it's not turning out nicely will cut it"... Then he says.. "Don't worry mom, it will turn out and I'll be super handsome :D. " We left it at that.. So now he's on his quest to have long hair.

Last night I was putting my son to bed. Saying good night, and praying for the night.. When my litte one says. "Mom! I have these two round things under my genitals...Am I going to die, they are hard and small??? Umm, my thoughts !!.Oh no, not more bumps on his body.. " where Ethan, were is the bumps??" He then points to his balls and says there... they move around too... Apon understanding what "bumps" he was meaning, I therefore explained to him in simple term that thats what the Lord gave to boys. Then a whole slew of questions sparng forth for which I had to therefore say.. When you grow up you will understand all about how the lord made you etc.

I thought that it was cute though once they start asking all these different things.. You think they are so "young" and still taking there time to grow.. But then time just slips by you so fast too. Ahh Well!!!

The Mystery

Last night I had some things going through my head and then I wrote this down. It's been a while since I've written any poetry but I thought to give it a shot.

Why do we love, if love doesn't last forever
Why do we cry, if our tears only dry and wither.
Why do we brake with a heart that will one day heal.
Why do we hate, and know it's not for real.

Why do we wrong to make right again.
Why do we hide behind this thin layer of skin.
Why do we bury our fears with sin.
Why do we hold those burning aches within.

To fear a fear,
To dream a dream,
To love that's the Mystery.

To heal a heart,
To make amends,
To fight the soul from hardening.

To save a life,
To catch a tear,
To love.. that's the Mystery.
To love is our destany.

Frustrations

Have you ever had that feeling? Were you're thinking one way and wanting to say what you feel, but when it comes out it sounds completly opposite? Or when you say something one way and the person expresses what you said just in a whole other manner, with a different meaning? Ya that's me... And reaching..."beyond that point of no return". It's that "braking,snapping" point..were no matter what you try to do right. Or how hard you are trying.. Everything is just not going right! Or people around you just can't seem to understand you? Or you just feel totally frustrated with yourself and you feel that no matter what you do, that you think is right or good. You just can't seem to please anyone.?Well that's me.. and it's confussing... so frustrating.. I just want to yell out..."shut up, and leave me the F*#@ alone!!!" But ya! Such is life sometimes. So win some and you lose some....Right? Lord help me stay possitive...

Anyway! Was up till 3 last night with the baby. Poor thing I think was bothered cause his bellybotton is not healing right. And his Doctor just stuck some acid on it to try to dry it up faster. So he was all bothered or something. So our night was long, then I was supposed to make a Chiroprator visit at 8:00 in the morning.. Started getting up but wasn't given much time to get ready. So I ended up staying home, having devotions instead. Which was fine for me. Then another long and busy day! Oh well...Com-see com-su!!!

Viva Italia!!!

Italy played Germany today.. Man was it a tough one.. But Yippy yah! ITALY WON!!! Which means they will be playing agains't France in the finals. I only pray and hope that they win the finals its been so long since that's happened.. And it be so nice..
Ya duppy duu dahhh! I'm so happy for them... It's funny though how they have to cry after a game.. Guess it means alot more to them then anything.. As it's their life..
Well I'm just happy the won and made it to the finals. Forza Italia!! Go get them!!!

Happy Birthday Big Bro..

Hey! Just wanted to shout out to a very special bro.. yesterday was his 27th Birthday.. Saddly I was not able to put this up yesterday.. But I just wanted to acknowledge him.. As he's been such a big part in our families life...
Love you Nat, you've been the best through all these years.. The good and the bad... Always a great exsample of determination and stick-to-ativeness, visions & goals... Thanks for always being there for us. For me! In your own special way... I know life wouldn't be the same with out you in it..Not to mention for all the many chicks out there that would have just died with out knowing you :P.. You're so much fun and joy. Thanks for being who you are, what you are. This worlds a better place because of what you've given to it. Love you Soooo much... Can't wait to see you again, and see your gf and her sis. It's going to be a blast I know it! So Happy Birthday!! Wish you the best. Love you!

My Brother

Yesterday marked the day of my Brother Matthews passing. But I'd like to take the time now to remember his life, and all the wonderful things he brought and gave to us all.

For one,he was the best brother one could have ever asked for.
Two, the dearest and truest friend one could have.
Three, he was always there for you when you needed him.
Four, always a good listening ear.
Five, anything he'd put his mind to, he'd get it done.
Six,was very loving and caring.
Seven, Very handsome.
Eight, No matter where he went, he always left behind a good impression on ppl.
Nine, Very sensitive to peoples feelings.
Ten, In growing up, of all my brothers, he was the one that always stuck up for me though all his peers ,brothers or others used to tease or put me down. He was always there. Always sorry if I was teased to much.. Stuck up for me. Showed me so much love.. In growing up was super supportive of my desisions in life. And just basically gave of himself to help the family in everyway possible.. Even when he didn't have much himself.

There is tons more I could say about dear Matthew.. I know where he's now he's really happy.. Though I miss him alot.. I know he's in a better place, along with others that we love and miss.. But he's also able to help us so much more now in heaven then he could have down here. So though it was sad his passing. I'm happy for his new life, and that he doesn't have to suffer any more.. Or feel what ever he had felt in this life. He's free now and happy.. And thats why I know I have to be happy for him too, cause I know it's what he would want of us.

Love you so much Matt, thanks for everything. Always thinking & praying for you till we meet again.

Moving on...

Shelly, Rosie, Stephany



Shelly, Sonia
































Shelly & Mike























Shelly & my son Ethan

Waaaaa!!! Yesterday a very dear and special friend moved on from here. It seems as though a whole chapter of our lives have just closed with her moving on... We dropped her off at her new destination with well wishes and hopeful thoughts. But apon arriving home the house was beyond quiet and strangely still. I wonder if she will like her new abode, or if she will miss us and want to return? My hope is that she will return, my desire is that she'll miss us here to much and come back. But then, where she is ..is a good place with awsome people. That I hope if its the lords will she will find her calling and what she longs for there. I don't want to be selfish in holding her back. But just the thought of her not being with us any more leaves a very deep void in our lives.. It's been a day and I already miss her so much...

Here's to Michelle, Love you girl.. You have so many wonderfu gifts the lords given you. With so many great and wonderous things in store.. You've been such a wonderful part of my life, and those around you. Always a sample of love and happiness and giving.. Thanks for coming here and making our house a home... I am sure going to miss you! As will Kaden, but mostly Ethan. :)

Three cheers for Michelle!! Hip hip horray!!!
Just to mention.. She's not dead.. Only gone from this home.. Hehe!!! I just wanted to let you all know incase it came across that way.

Late nights..

So ya! Staying up late... you would think it's a wonderful thing till you actually have to be up late with a reason.. A child.!!.. I'm not complaining,. Just appreciating what I had..And oh! those days when the nights were peaceful and quiet.

What makes me sad though is that my poor baby has bad colic, or at least what they call colic! What is the meaning of colic? The hardest thing is just knowing what to do,what's wrong, how to help him, how to understand what he's feeling or wanting. And then staying clam through it all.

He's been doing a lot better the last two nights though (If only it stays that way). So that's a blessing...Now to be able to get up in the morning!

ROBBED!!

Ya! Did I tell you.... The other day I got robbed... Weird thing was.. I went to a Restrant with a friend to eat out.. AppleBee's... So we park, and I decided to leave my purse in the truck, not wanting to have to hold anything thing for onces.. And inside.. just before getting our food, I had this earry feeling to pray for the truck, cause for some reason I felt and had the though what if we were robbed?" so I prayed I quick pray and went to eating.. Not long after we came out of the resturant.. My friend opened my door first and let me get in.. I got in... and looked across to the other side.. Saw glass shattered on the drivers side.. and my first reaction was.... " no, were not robbed!" then I turned to my friend and said..." someone broke in".. I had left my purse behind the passangers seat on the floor...that was the only thing in the Truck that was taken.. thankfully they didn't get my friends digital camara.. As he had borrowed it.. So we went back to the resturant.. Called the police.. I was still in shock.... I told mysef I wasn't going to cry...I called Dad to let him know, and broke out in tears... what!!! can you blame me? I was mad! We filed a police report, cleaned the mess, and went and watched a movie...

Boy,was I mad!!! Not to mention the next day my bank calls to see why I wasn't useing my card...only to be having so much activity on it in the space of 12 hours.. 7 times, they tried and failed to get into my account..How stupid is that?

Moments in Time

A kiss! (Or suck :D)

A little touch!


Just as little bit of love!




Pretending not to care









Marital Problems















Here are our precious ones, Liliana (Rick & Rosie's daughter)& Kaden.. Just spending some "quality time" together. Just watch them grow up & hate us for doing this.But its so fun. :D From getting one to stop crying, to getting the other to stay happy and ready for the camara. A task in its self, yet well worth it..

Happy Fathers Day

Yes I know I'm late.. But such is like.. Didn't want anyone that is a father to think I didn't think of them, as I know what that's like.. Hehe! Anyway! Happy Fathers Dad to all you fathers out there. Love you all!


And here's to my Father...
My thoughts... I wrote this a couple days ago as it was for my dad so I thought to post it here.

I had been reading for my word time Thought Power which was real feeding and inspiring for me. I don't know what it was but I was quit emotional that day which I've not been to recently... To many things going through my head.

It all started when Dad was going for one of his board meetings. He came to say good bye to us before going. (Its not the every day Dad) And I was thinking that it was so sweet and nice of him to do so . Then when he left I was thinking about it, and started crying. Don't ask me why.. but I got to thinking about times past.. And one that I remember the most that really stuck out to me about my dad, that really touched me.. Was the time after I had my 1st son. I had gotten a really bad infection in my stomach.. and was in alot, alot of pain.. Laying there on my bed I could not move a muscle as it was so painful and i felt paralyzed. Dad was there with me. And as he's a real fighter he always tries to get us to fight through our battles and trails.. But this was a little more then I could bare... None the less.. this is the part that always stuck with me... I was crying in pain.. I looked up at dad and said" sorry dad, I'm really trying to fight". In that moment, and in other times like that, I saw just how much my father loved me, loved us! He looked at me with the saddest hurting eyes as if he wished to take the pain and the weight I had on his sholder. And said " I know you are sweety, I know you are!" I remember his face, he just started crying as if he were in all that pain for me, and how sorry he felt that I was hurting that bad and he was incapable of doing anything to help me.

I just remember that and I look back on that time and I know that although dad may not always show it or not always express it. There is no way I could ever deny the love that he has for each one of us.. Or the pain that he suffers when one of us suffer. Thats how I know Dad truly does love us all , even those not apart of our immediate family.
It just made me think.. what would I do if dad were not with us any longer? Would I be abe to say I could let him go I could live without him in our lives? I know no one could.. but it be so much different.. So much harder. It just wouldnt be the same with out the Dad I love and cherrish.. Both through the good and throught the bad time.

So this to say.. Love you Dad.. thanks for always being there for me.. for us! We are what we are today because of your patients and love for us... thanks you!

More Fun!

Rosie & sis Amy Charity & her Sugar The games

More sugar way...way...to much sugar.




But it was a great sugar/sister fest..

SISTERS!!!

My Sis Charity and I The Sugar
Amy & her Sugar,
Charity & Amy's sugar
The girls....

We took these a couple weeks back.. But it was alot of fun that I just have to post this..
Rosie and I took our two 12 yr old sisters to a Cafe' shop.. We had gotton some free coupons for La Madeline and wanted to do something with them so we did.. Here's our proof. Was a blast!

It's Quiet..Too Quiet!!!

.... So many things have been going on all at once, happenings, changes,excitment,joy & saddness. And it seems to always hit at the same time when ever it does happen.

We just lost a bunch of members to our home saddly. Tim, Maya and their girls. Lani left before them. Aaron's gone at the time, only to come back and then leave again. And then Shelly just informed us that she'll be moving as well.
Then there's Jeanie that wants to join us. And this friend of mine for a time. With people coming and going. Not to mention the arrival of two new babies in the home..
It's just over whelming. And really quite now too.. I love the quite. Not complaining there! Just miss the home that we had. Everyone here was just totally great.. If we had not all decided to close.. We would have really made a great winning team. We were a great winning team!!!

Anyway... I would like to thank all those that lived here. For all their love and support. It was a real experiance living with you all and I'm going to miss you greatly when that time really comes to departing and saying good bye. Love you! Your in my prayers.

Kidz

Pictures say a thousand words. Ethan(5) Kaden (1mth)

Here's another two pictures I had of my boys. A total picture of love and beauty. Aren't they precious? Oh to be as a little child!